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July 31 the Faith of God I can not image what I can do if I lose the faith of God one day. It is so afraid and sad to image in the sense of being his child. the emptyness and lonelyness will be the only thing within the life. with no friends, no love, no hope, no heart...congratulation you are experiencing the really bottom of the life I believe.. God have purpose for us to live in the life with him, to be the light and salt in this world, to be a witness of Jesus Chris. "Then God blessed them, and God said to them, be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth." (Gen. 1:28) God gave each of us unique talents, gifts, personalities and station in life. And also the resources and provisions we need to fulfill your purpose were created and put in place before you were even born. the Key is learning to appropriate them, and how to use them with good strewardship. Man has a vision because God has given him one. but the vision will only become clear when man extends his faith and seeks God's vision. I did learn a lot through the reality, through the circumstances, through the people..By his love and grace, I am knowing he is using me somehow to contribute his masterplan with my uniqueness. Even though it is small, insignificant cog in God's great big eternal plan, but I believe it is still an important component of it. because God is the vision-giver and the mission-planner. Faith, hope always come from God's wonderful love for us. there is no fear for me to pursit my dream with God's love^^ May 10 Emotional silencehave kept be quite for a while . . . green is symbolism of spring. . wonder it is spring in China ba^^
life becomes more interesting. . . . .stay alone in a country where is not belong to you. . . . still insist that is God's plan . . . seems has to have lots of faith on it. .. . sometime feel like thoes seabirds fly long distance to seek place to live . . not sure I am on the way to there or already in the place. .
working, church almost occupy my time schedule. . . not much feeling about graduating from uni. . feel I will be back there to study again soon. .hehe. . (actually, it is not too bad to be a student~~) be great to serve God with group of friends together. . we have been brought together as a team by differnt experience. . always be appriciated to be one of them. . . all the laugh, sorrow and joy are so precious for being keep inside my heart^^. . wonder all the struggles, all the worries will become nothing after years. . . it is painfully to obey what God is telling . . .but if not, will pay for even more later.. . somehow we repeatly experience success or fail of following God's words . . then learn from what we pay for mistakes. . until the day we go back to heavn. .
anyway. . have to fix up my car again lr. . .got some scratches at the left front door. . because of my disconcentration during driving. . er. . feel sorry for I am the one who is driving him. . ~~ but still thanks God that is not a big deal. . and not put me alone in this circumstance. .that is enough. ^^. . willing to learn more lr. .but next time . .hope the learning price is not that high. . hehe. .
all right . .it is time to go to bed . . will work early tomr. . pray may God will give me power to go through long day working with joyful heart lr. . June 15 A day. . . .Un..... finished my last exam today. . :) told myself can have a good sleep when i got home. . strange??? i could not fall to sleep at all when i laid down on my bed. . accounted how many exams i have to take for next few weeks, months, years. . Is everyone doing same thing . . pass one exam, another is waiting. . Hehe. . want to be the one who set up thoes exams . . but sounds not good still lleave others to suffer it. . ::)
Then did clean up my room after trying to sleep. . washed up clothes and bed sheets. . .. unfortunatlly,one of my white shirt was colored to red by my mistake. . interesting oh. .white is the most purified color in my thought. . but such easy to transfer to others. red, blue, green. .. . whatever my shirt can not be change back to white . . :)
Afternoon saw a rainbow to hang up in the sky. . . Hehe. . so pretty lr. . but god make rainbow only appear after raining . . . Amen::))
May 15 Thanks for giving. . .get 3 weeks to my final exam. . study hard . .plus good rest . . accounting paper that i study this semester is really hard. . . trust myself, trust the one who stand behind me. . study by heart. .
 thank you for all encouragement, all the support i received. . . . i am full of strength to challenge it. . . Sometime the life is hard, . .. .it means "do not turn away from it. . learn how to be wisdom to deal with it, how to be fearless when you face it . .The growth might take place in pain. .. your heart might be got hurt from it.. . . . .but the rainbow will appear after storming, Pupa has to take Metamorphosis transform to become butterfly. .. do not give up. . you are transforming by him. . ..
我愿意每一天，你定睛垂顾 好像我是你唯一的孩子 每一天，你侧耳垂听 好像世上没有别的祷告 多少不为人知的愁苦 多少不曾掉落的眼泪 我发现你知道，你全都知道 我愿意，我愿意，我愿意！ 从你手中接受每个环境。 我愿意，我愿意，我愿意！ 这是我所需，是于我有益 我愿意，我愿意，我愿意！ 交出自己，信任你美意。 我愿意，我愿意，我愿意！ 你永远良善，全然是爱。 我愿意，我愿意， I do, I do, I do, 我愿意！
April 15 感恩. .放弃. . 是不是不代表失败?. . .. . 窗外弥漫着淡淡的橙花的香味. . .
复活节的意义. .= . . 希望. .主耶稣给了人类生存下去的希望. :) . . 新的开始, 会有新的希望. . . . 今年的复活节有着特别的意义. . . . 一直相信这一路走来并不孤单. . . 有主的话. .有主的陪伴. . . .我的整个家族都一直在蒙受着主的恩典. . . 虽然哥哥, 姐姐, 弟弟, 妹妹 生活在不同的国家, 做着不同的事. .相信主在看顾着每一个人. . 但是, 很想和主说对不起. .有时候仍然让人的感情控制了一切, 忘记, 甚至忽略了从主给了我们生命起, 就已给了我们做了最美,最好的安排. . .. . . 感谢主给我的每一位朋友. . 感谢你们的关心, 感谢你们对我的祝福. . . 知道这个复活节是主给我时间下决心做我该做的事了. . .从没有放弃过自己的梦想. . 因为感觉到. . 主在带着我一步一步的走下去. . ::)) 不后悔我所做过的事, 对的, 错的, 伤心的, 开心的. . . 人都会长大. . 学着怎样跌倒, 学者怎样站起来. . 学着怎样爱别人. . 学着怎样爱主. . ..
今天的阳光照在脸上很舒服. . . 好久都没有听到风的声音了. . . .
 The gate to life is narrow and the way that leads to it is hard, and there are few people who find it. (Matthew 7:14) April 08 ^^Woooo. . .^^ .... I love mango oh. . . .. . yum. . yum. .
Hehe. . . . . long time have not been chinese supermarket lr. . . . .went shopping after working. . .. bought five mangos. . . .. ate two tonight. . . . . I might grow mango tree when i get retire. . .  ..April 07 Easter is coming. . . Today it was long day again. .. went to uni. . . did some network. and studying. . . had dinner in friend house. . time runned out so fast . .. night again. . . . Yesterday night we had really good bible study. . .what does the willingness of god have for us , ... . :) it is hard to judge which path god made for us. . it is more hard to follow what god tell us. . it is the most hard to trust god completely with no doubt. . .. ask myself sometimes. . how faithful i am in god?. . Can i give up something i perfer, and do whatever god wants me to do? . .
Called my dad yesterday. . .he complained I had not phoned him for ages. . I know I am not a good daughter sometime. . so only thing i could do is to listen what he complained to me quitely without excuse. . . but evently. .. it is good to know he is fine with everything .
Remeber when I was a child, had lots of questions to ask mum. . the answers she gave me was . . ."you will understand when you grow up. . . . ." Now I do . . .but still have lots of questions. . Hehe. . Is that because i am still young or questions is growing up with me as well.? . . ^^
excited about the trip to Whangarei. . have been thinking to worship god in different place with different people :). .seek god within nature. . . . afriad all the time our desire and passion to serve god might become part of responsiblity . . . :) god bless us. . he knows what we are thinking. . ^^ pray for a good time we have in Whangarei. . .
To all my friends: Enjoy the Easter holiday ...... . . . Easter is not only about eggs and rabbit. . .it is all about............
 March 09 Thank you lordI did something dangours again tonight. . i drove home after supper with friends, my car was nearly hitted when i went cross traffic light. Because i did not realise the traffic light have not turned to green. .. . and i was thinking about other stuff when i drove cross light. . Wu. . . thank you god. . I still can sit here and type up my space. . So praying is my first thing to do after i get home safely. . .
It is not too bad. . i find my passport after praying. . ( I thought it is lost today )
Then I weighted myself by the scale in my house. . . . feel strange . . the figure is less 4kg than last time. . . unbelievable. . The scale must has some problems . .i do not think i am that lighter. . . . healthy is more important.. . my mom always say that to me
 . . so i have to do some study now. . can not waste time. . add oil lr. .
 March 08 随笔看着手上的画.....那是朋友随手画的.... 没有什麽收藏价值.... 但..... 还是舍不得丢.... 也许多年后是一份回忆吧 . .
站在早晨和煦的太阳下，静静享受着上帝赐予的那一刻的平和，温馨。。 风吹在脸上的感觉很舒服，夹杂着清新的泥土和花香传诵着岛国上发生的一切。 。 。
冬天快到了， 蓝色的天空随时会布满乌云。 。 有人说神很喜欢蓝色， 所以在创造世界时，天空和大海就成了蓝色的。 。 那麽，神一定不喜欢灰色。 。 因为灰色的乌云会遮住蓝色的天空。 。 。
这学期的课不难， 但都需要时间来温习。 。 2006 年的我又长大了一岁， 但是需要更多的时间去学习认识自己，找到自己的位置和方向。 。信心和自信都来自对神的爱。 。 我可以做的只有勇敢跟着他走下去。 。
“渐渐发现， 只要把字词放在恰当的地方， 就能造出漂亮的句子， 最重要的是， 那是属于我自己的句子。
接着也发现， 所谓的幸福就是在一个恰当的地方， 过着合适的生活， 那是我喜欢的生活。”
February 21 ^^很喜欢张小娴的小说. . . .. . 有点感悟人生的味道，copy 两篇下来。 。 。
人生中许多美好的东西，都是意外。 人生中许多美好的东西，都是意外。 那天晚上，朋友约你去吃饭，你本来推掉了，但临时改变主意参加他们的聚会，在聚会上，你邂逅了一个你喜欢的人，然后和他相恋。这不是意外又是什么？ 你曾经以为你不会再爱别人了，你辞去工作，一个人到外国居住疗伤，在异地，你碰到另一个人，你下半生竟然与他一起。这不是刻意的发现，而是意外。 他说今天晚上要工作不能陪你，你一个人孤单地窝在家里吃即食面喝啤酒，他突然出现，这意外惊喜往往是爱情里难忘的片段。 你用了很多方法减肥，总是不成功，一天，你吃错了东西，患上肠胃炎，上吐下泻几天，就减掉你辛辛苦苦也减不掉的七磅。 你拼命赶去车站，那一班车八点正就要开出，而且一向十分准时，你看看手表，已经是八点零五分了，明知道赶不及，你还是拼命跑，因为你约了心爱的人见面，你不想迟到。终于赶到车站，那班车今天因为某些原因，竟然没有开走—— 美好的东西，往往在意料之外。
在你心中有这样的一个人吗？ 你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此， 但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。 也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。 也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。 也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。 也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。 也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。 也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。 不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。 他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。 你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。 你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。 特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？ 很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。 因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友…… February 17 Something Beautiful . .4:10AM . . . the time is now. .
Could not sleep. . .^^ . . actually forget to sleep.. . ?? . . . because . . . was listening the worship songs recorded on 15/02/06. . ..
finished my work to get home, time is already over 12pm. . . got the email from Chris before going to bed. . . It was the website where gather all the worship songs we have sang for god . . . .
... just listening, listening time by time. . . like the song -- " this is my desire". .
. . .. still be like sing to god on the stage. . . make me want to cry . . . so moved by the songs, the words we spoke, sang from the heart... it seems no matter what kind of difficults we have to face, what kind of trials we have to experience, what kind of tasks we have to fulfill............we are still strong enough to stand in this world, hold hands with brothers and sisters in god's love... . . i am sure god was smiling in the middle of us during singing. . .. . .appriciate this moment. .each one of us has one purpose, works hard toward one goal, sing and worship to one god. . . . .:)). . . appriciate everyone who brings this moment into our worship . .into tabnacle... into everyone's heart. . ..How great encouragement is . . . . .. the message god have left over to us. ..
 January 12 Color of the windDo not need work today. . . want to update my space. . but nothing in my mind this moment. .
 listening a song.....is called colors of the wind. . from ** disney cartoon. i never watch it, but like the song and the its name.....
Colors Of The Wind[Pocahontas] What colors of the wind are they? . . . . who can paint it out?. . . . .. . .Hehe  January 08 **............@@............##Should encourage myself more......
Now I find a fact how hard to step into the new business....start to learn the stuff about Media....How do i feel? ...um, I am not smart enough....
 ... need   ,then   . . .The books I borrowed from Lib are due to tomr...have to reture all of them...oh..totally 10 books... er..big job to do...
Work tomr... hope people still go for New Year holiday somewhere
 . . hehe. . it will be nice to me. . January 05 Happy New YearWoo. . . back from holiday for two days already. .
Went to Wellington. . stayed in Taupo, Napier. . .passed by lots of small villages, towns....saw the sea, experienced mountains. . .haha. .kind of long rest time lar. . . . . really like New Year Eve fire work in Napier. . . It was the last day in 2005. .people did celebrate on the beach, some music, dance......and waited for fire work until 12pm. .. then everything became the part of history. . success, failure, happiness, upset, disappointed. . Everyone start from zero again. . hehe, hope 06 is a nice year for each of us... by the way, ice cream was so good in somewhere around Napier. . yeah, because.... not too sweet... made by the fresh friut( heard from others). . . and have to take long queue to get . . . .
昨天晚上终于可以上网了, 可是突然发现keyboard could not work anymore. . . .重新检查了connection few times . . .. but still couldn't. . . 哦, my gosh. . .how can i talk to my friend on MSN. . 只可以用icon . . .哈, 他们一定不明白我想说什麽. . . . . .Finally I gave up. . .went to bed early. .
 But 感谢主, keyboard can work when i get up today morning . . .( hehe, still do not know the reason) ???? December 05 Camping . . . . . . ...Back from the global camp for one week already. .. still feel it should took longer. . had lots of fun there. . played games and dances, sang the songs, did the performance. .The place is away from urban. . full of trees, flowers. . The beach is just down to the main road from our living lounge. . Two persons had wonderful testimony in front of others, then baptised in the pure and clean ocean . . .
pride of them when saw the glorious smile on their face. . .My favourite part of the camp must be the camp fire. . Hehe. . The feeling was like all the famliy got together in the new year. .. sang and danced all by nature. . thanks lord for that moment, even though it just lasted 2 or 3 hours. . prayed for no raining, prayed for that the fire could keep lighting longer. . felt God stayed in the middle of us that night. . sang and danced with us. . . all the difficults, all the confusions, all the stresses, all the hard time were took away from everyone. . . treasured the special moment, treasured the global friendship, treasured the end of 2005. . .A nice song is written:
"As you go through life you will see, there is so much that we, don't understand.........
And the only thing we know is things do not always go the way we planned........
But you will see everyday that we will never turn away when it seems all your dreams come undone........
We will stand by your side, filled with hope and filled with pride...........
we are more than we are.................
Even those who are gone, are with us as we go on..........
Your journey has only begun, tears of pain, tears of joy,
One thing nothing can destroy is our pride deep inside we are one. . .
We are like the earth and sky. . .one family under the sun. .
All the wisdom to lead, all the courage that you need you will find when you see we are one. . .
"one of my friend told me the place we stayed in camp was nothing change with last year. . only people different. . . Personally quiet scary about leaving, about separating. . . so sad. . . not sure how long they can reunion. . .how much they have to suffer. . . .
 . .but life is unpredictable. . . decision must be made sometime. . .only thing we can do is to face it, overcome it with no fear anymore. . God will stand by your side. . . . . .. .hope I can see all guys next global camp in 2006. . be strong to carry on my job. . follow the plan god made for me. . . god bless all of us. . . . November 20 JourneyJourney It’s a long long journey Till I know where I’m supposed to be It's a long long journey And I don't know if I can believe When shadows fall and block my eyes I am lost and know that I must hide It's a long long journey Till I find my way home to you Many days I’ve spent Drifting on through empty shores Wondering what's my purpose Wondering how to make me strong I know I will falter I know I will cry I know you'll be standing by my side It's a long long journey And I need to be close to you Sometimes it feels no one understands I don't even know why I do the things I do When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul Will you break down these walls and pull me through Cause it's a long long journey Till I feel that I am worth the price You paid for me on calvary Beneath those stormy skies When satan mocks and friends turn to foes It feel like everything is out to make me lose control Cause it's a long long journey Till I find my way home to you. September 29 回家了. .我回来了. . .还是一个背包, 一个手提袋. . 但是比去的时候却情松了许多. .
惠灵顿很小, 四面环山, 但是很纯朴. . 到处都充满着古典浓郁的西洋氛围. .造型特别的市政大楼, 旧旧的上山缆车, 盘踞山头一角的植物园, 坐落在港口附近的海关大楼, 还有有点小, 有点乱的** 港口...........惠灵顿的街道都是窄窄长长的, 汽车穿杂行人. . . .. .我最喜欢那里的咖啡馆, 朴实中又透着一点华丽, 整个小店里混合着咖啡,蛋糕和木头的香味. .还有干净明亮的落地窗.. 透过窗子看到外面的行人匆匆而过. . 工作,上课, 为生活忙碌. . .
在一个陌生城市的三天行程, 哈哈, 我看到了, 学到了,想到了很多. . . 对不起, 我知道我的任性让许多朋友为我担心. .
... 这次甚至都没和爸爸妈妈讲. . . 呵呵. . 虽然只有三天的假期, 但是已经足够时间总结我自己所做过的, 和以后该怎样做的. . . . 回来奥克兰, 就是从新开始工作,学习.... 就是有信心面对一切我必须面对的. . .感谢主, 让我重新认识我自己, 让我有勇气继续走我该走的路. . 谢谢所有的朋友, 我感动你们对我的关心, 我会记得, 会珍惜. .唯一的遗憾就是没有见到惠灵顿的晴天. . .但我相信下次去时一定会. . .
Jing(静)
29.09.05 August 30 Time Management!Hehe......... I am lazy to update my space for long time oh..... Now still not enough time to write down sth...so just cite some stuffs from my email friend sent to me. .. feel it is worthy to read. . .
. . especially thanks for Joanna...... God bless u ^_^THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE
Why is it that time drags when you want it to pass quickly and flies when you need more of it? It's not very cooperative!
Time is the great equalizer. We all have the same amount of it. The difference between successful people and average people is this: Achievers manage their time wisely. Rather than wasting time or spending time, they invest time. They make the most out of each moment.
Today, people are realizing that time is more important than money. Money is a renewable resource - there are always places to get more of it. But time is a limited resource.
You only have a certain allotment of time in your life. When it's used up...that's it! YOUR TIME IS YOUR LIFE. When you give someone your money, you've given them something that you can replace. But when you give someone your time, you've given them a part of your life. This means "time management" is really "life management." The Bible has this to say:
"Live life with a due sense of responsibility...as people who know the meaning of life...Make the best use of your time. Don't be vague but grasp firmly what you know to be the will of God." (Eph. 5:15-17 Ph)
I'd summarize these verses this way:
1. ANALYZE YOUR LIFESTYLE! Be aware of where your time is going.
2. UTILIZE THE PRESENT! Make the most of this moment.
3. RECOGNIZE WHAT'S IMPORTANT! Focus on priorities that last.
A question to consider as you work this week: "How much of what I'm doing right now is going to count ten years from now...50 years from now or for eternity"
You have just enough time to fulfill God's purpose for your life. If you "can't get it all done" it means (1) youˇre doing things God never intended for you to do, or (2) Youˇre doing the right thing in the wrong way.
A PRAYER: "God help me to manage my time wisely this week."
August 04 夜...好静的夜....好累, 可是睡不着.......
只是觉得有点无奈..... 无奈现实的残酷, 心痛每一个人都会经历这种残酷....... 那麽残酷之后会是什麽......? 带着伤口面无表情的继续走下去, 还是找个地方躲起来自我疗伤..... 太阳的东升西落, 四季的轮流交替, 花开花谢的自然规律仍然按着原来的轨道进行着, 没有改变............
伤口一定很痛,但是会有愈合的一天......爱是唯一的药引....天父的爱, 父母的爱,兄弟姐妹的爱......... 可以做的,只有借肩膀给你....重新开始需要勇气和智慧.........自己跌倒就要自己站起来....我知道, 你可以的.......
打开窗户, 阳光照进来, 好暖, 好温馨...........
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